No…I don't want to be your old lady…no…. I don't want to be "committed" to you…no…I don't want you to promise that you won't have other bitches… all I really want to do is cuddle and fuck from time to time…
Don't frown at me… don't look at me with disdain… Don't talk down on my thought process… I don't trust you, or him, or him… I am smart now… I know better… sex is safe, love is evil…Don't shake your head at me…
So let's go have a drink… roll a few trees… a little conversation always helps the mood… we can kiss… no tongue… I'm not your girl… Let's do what you came here for so you can leave… yes, you have to leave…
Don't get me wrong, I like you… your smile is cute… that fucking Louie V belt fits so well around your waist… you smell so fucking good… and taste even better… you always say the most witty shit… make me smile until my cheeks hurt… that little dimple in you right cheek is just the cutest … FUCK, stop it!... don't do that to me… please don't do that!
We've been down this road before… you know I wasn't always like this… I used to know how to love… I used to love YOU… I used to know how to trust… I used to trust YOU… I wasn't always like this…
I love you… via text… I love you… via phone calls… I love you… via sex moans… I love you… I used to know love… I used to love you…
I was delusional… believing my own illusion… you were always so smart… I loved that about you… you taught me things… taught me that love is a superficial deception of one's mind… I learned so much from you… shared so much with you… loved you so much… it wasn't real… you taught me that…
Long talks, hot showers, high days, oversexed nights…secrets shared, plans made, goals set… no one knew me better than you, no one fucked me harder than you, no one was as special as you, no one made me happier than you did, no one made me cry harder than you did, no one broke my heart more than you, no one taught me more than you…
My best friend, my worst enemy… love vs. hate… you didn't warn me… you should have warned me… threw me in the water and told me "swim bitch"… I learned my lesson… you were my teacher… you were my lover… you are my enemy!
So don't fucking judge me as I drown these shots of poisonous patron, flaunt around in my "come fuck me clothes", and partake in one night stands with uninteresting men that I never want to meet in the light of day…
I don't care if you don't want to "wife" me kuz I don't fucking like to cook your favorite fucking meal and wash your dirty ass draws and suck your salty fucking balls…
I don't love you, I don't trust you, I don't want you…. Hard dick, bubble gum and a blunt… that is all I request from you… I don't trust loving you… you taught me that…. I've learned my lesson….
Viola Monroe
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